— “another morning when he must do it again—there is always another morning”… Ernest Hemingway
slow movement forward
through another day
nothing left to say
that doesn’t sound
like nonsense
as the sun sets
over his shoulders
hemingway sits looking
around the empty room
old powers & old friends gone
the telephone mute
measuring the time of day
by the whiskey left in the bottle
the unrelenting depression
overwhelming
in a discarded draft of his
nobel prize acceptance speech
he wrote, “there is no lonelier man
than the writer when he is writing
if he has written well
everything in him
has gone into the writing
& he faces another morning when
he must do it again—
there is always another morning”
but this summer of 1961
he was sick & sad
& his mind had grown
tired of him
so
he put a 12 gauge shotgun
to his head
& touched off both barrels
now
“papa” can rest his arms on the ropes
ignore the bell for the next round
the clanging hammer
of the morning alarm—
now irrelevant